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OMG! OMG! OMG!
I am still so high over last night's performance at Singapore Hits Award!!!!!!!!!!!!
LOL... Free tickets for two from my colleague and I brought Joey there and even though I was tired like hell but I am so glad that I still decided to go because I didn't want to waste the tickets.
OMG! OMG! OMG!
Olivia Ong's 如燕 was a little shaky however I think it's not easy to sing that live so still thumbs up!
张芸京's performance got the whole audience really high!! Especially love her 黑裙子 and I was so impressed when she sang the high pitch part!! It was soooooo good.. haha.. Her two other fast tracks... I think it's 破天荒 and 玩世不恭... Even Mayday was equally high.. haha.. And she was really cute because she was a huge fan of Mayday so she's like so excited and happy to see them and even stood up when they performed.
徐佳莹's 身骑白马 and 失落沙洲, 萧敬腾's 王妃, 收藏 and 我怀念的 were also very very impressive.. haha..
Everybody kept laughing when 萧敬腾 is talking.. LOL..
AND OF COURSE, THE BEST PERFORMANCE!!!!!! S.H.E!!!!!!
LOL.. it's just like attending their concert... They were so cute, so high, so pretty.. haha.. They were the last to perform and they can dance and shake so well... LOL.. They sang 锁住时间, 美丽新世界,中国话 and superstar!!
I stood up and got really high when they performed and poor Joey had to be pulled up by me to support them also.. : P LOL.. In any case, almost everyone stood up when they performed. HEHE..
Of course there were a lot more other performers also... Mayday, 迷路兵, 陈伟联, 蔡健雅, 梁文音,黄靖伦...
I think the main thing wasn't that they won anything.. LOL.. I was like in a mini concert.. LOL..
Okay I know I am crazy.. LOL.. too high..

I think Mayday, SHE has the most fans... I was quite disappointed when SHE lost to Mayday for the 最受欢迎团体奖. Haha.. Never mind, they won a lot of awards last night also.. Haha.
Anyway, tonight Channel U 7.30pm will be the telecast for the award!
 

P.S: LET'S GO K SOON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

FI lessons are torturing me…
Every single thing the teacher says in class is giving me flashbacks.

什么时候我跟他已经有了三十公分的距离。。。

我努力 的扬 着 脸 孔
试着让眼 泪 不往下 流
别往下 流
不安的感觉到什么
在我生活 中 不再相 同
不相同
想要 说 却还沉默
伸 出 手 无法触碰
天空突然一 片 辽 阔
原来你是真的 已经 离 开 我
在 我不熟悉的 世界 过 新的 生 活
闭上眼让泪 水滑 落
此刻你已 真的永远 离开 我
在另外一个没 有我 的世 界
自由 的走

Saturday, photo taking with BF (Mad, Angel, Angelia and Kenny) at Tanjong Pagar.
(I will selectively post the photos)
I wasn't in my best mood that day again due to some news again but I was trying my best to participate with the attendees and I was really glad that they made an effort to come despite some of them who were really sick.
My theme was soft but if you realized I wasn't really in my theme and I regretted making the last minute change on my dress code that day.
My makeup wasn't really nice also because it made my eyes look really heavy and tired.
However, I was really happy with the balloons. = ) LOL

This was candid.

Though this is not the theme I wanted but this was the nicest.
   
The not-so-bad photos.

But all the others had really nice photos taken. So I am contented enough. = )
If I were to crown one of them, Angelia will be the winner for my theme plus the most photogenic award with the balloons. = )

I am really grateful to the people who came for the photo taking when actually they are not obliged to come and join me under the warm weather for the hours of photo taking.
Especially to Mad and Kenny who were the photographers of the day (most of the time).

And also thank Angelia for coming even though she was really really sick and Angel for making the effort to come also...

And as planned, I wanted to distribute all my balloons after the photo taking.... So I went around looking for kids.
 
And believe me, it brightens up my spirits to see the kids receive the free balloons with joy. = )

Then proceeded to Boat Quay for dinner and went to Mind's Cafe to play games (together with Qiang and Yixiang).
It was really fun and I kept laughing... Haha.
But I must admit, I suck at the action-memory game but still, I like that game.

Sunday... My belated celebration with my YT Clique.
As requested, we had Long John for dinner.
Why LJS? It was because long long time ago, when we were still in YTSS, we had LJS almost every other day and until I became sick and anti of it. So... I felt that it belongs to an important part of my memory and I want it to be taken on picture.



Taken at LJS Northpoint...
As usual, I got "suan" all the way that day. LOL. But I am happy to hear their laughters... = )

After dinner, was supposed to proceed to my house to have a surprise hen's night party for Limin but before I could surprise her, they surprised me with a birthday cake which I said don't have to prepare this year... So... = ) Thank you!

I was really okay if there wasn't a cake/surprise this year. I swear... but then I realized (from photos and mood), I was really happy to get one. LOL. I am a contradict. Never mind. Ha. But really, thanks for the efforts and thought.

It was really funny because the cake was actually too hard and I nearly broke the plastic knife which was stuck in between the cheesecake when I tried to cut it fully down.
Even though Kelvin, with much effort to help, could not pull the knife out and therefore we had the waiter to bring the cake (with the knife still stuck) back to the kitchen to slice it for us. "-_-

Oh yes, by the way, this is taken at Bakerzin Northpoint.
I was attempting very hard that day to tell jokes that I have laughed like hell the previous night from the game at Mind's Cafe but they just wouldn't laugh. Hmph! LOL.

Okay... Finally... The highlight of the night... LOL.
Well, though most of it was planned by me, the others seem to have enjoyed and have fun too.
I've never seen all of them so enthusiastic and happening before actually. LOL : P
And for the first time, I was classified as "Evil" by them for the truths and dares I set and I knew if I ever will have a Hen's night in the future, I will be tortured by them back severely as they swear they will.
So.... conclusion is..... maybe I shall not get married. LOL.
But I must say, I was really lenient when I planned and especially during the game.

Our theme was white/blue and the bride-to-be has to do nine truth/dares to get all her nine gifts.
With each truth/dare completed, she will be given a clue to where the gift is hiding...
Not going to blog in details the truths and dares done due to privacy issues.

My team and I... I love the corsages.

The tangyuan that I was supposed to cook for them.

Don't worry Limin, I won't post any photos of your face with your "costume" as promised.

One of the dares.... (easy right?) LOL



The toast from us to the bride-to-be. If you noticed, Limin was holding the bottle instead of the glass because I only have six glasses. : P LOL HAHAHAHAHAHA

The bride-to-be with all our blessings... = ) All of us, one by one took photos with her and at the same time tied our individual corsages on her as a ceremony and gave our words of blessing as an ending.

The bride-to-be with our nine gifts (each with a special meaning)... The nine gifts also symbolizes our ninth year of friendship and 长长久久.

Can't wait for November 23rd to come... BUT I NEED A PROPER DRESS FOR IT... Em....

It's been a long time since I ever update. Ha.
Last week I had a few events for my birthday week.

17th October - Dinner with family and two ladies.
My parents cooked my favorite dishes as requested by me for dinner.
Claypot rice, grilled fish (even though my Dad used the wrong chilli) by my Dad and 花生鸡脚莲藕汤 (not boiled long enough) by my mum.
My sis also bought me a fruit cake even though I don't eat it and despite me telling her not to get it. LOL.
Okay but overall, effort appreciated. = )

For the past week, especially when my birthday was nearing, I am in really foul mood.
There was lots of things bothering and upsetting me which some I have let it out and some not.
In any case, let it be.

The eve of my birthday, I had a surprise on my kitchen floor plus some pretty don't-know-good-or-bad-news which made my bad mood peaked till the max...
I decided to cancel tuition (which got me fired) and accompanied my sis (along with mum) to k.

On the 21st October, my bad mood continued...
Celebrated my boss (actual) birthday and ate two of his birthday cake which made me sick and was running late for school...
 


I fell twice with my heels - once on bus and once on the train.
I was glad that Kenny (and Xueyan) offered to k. = )
(even though you refuse to say Happy Birthday to me.. LOL.. thank you.)

Friday, dinner-ed with my sis and Debbie (Ah Sun could not make it) at Togi.

My thank yous to those who sms-ed/fb-ed me happy birthday.
Mad, my sis, Angel, Joey, Christy, Junwei, Debbie, Hazel, Angelia, Agnes, Limin, Yixiang, Kelvin, Kay Ti, Rubber, Jack (whom I forced him to say : P), Apple, Stephanie, Justin, Sakinah,Yihan, Dorothy, Swee Meng, Debbie's mum, Ah Sun, Thomas, Xueyan, Nana, Qiang, Chai Ching, Loren, Erica, Weiling, Shevon, Filzah

This month will be really tiring for me.
With three nights of classes (mon, wed, thurs) and one tuition (tues) during the weekdays on top of my 8.30am to 5.30pm job is starting to wear me out bit by bit plus all the plannings and outings scheduled this month. Ha.
And I may be starting a weekend job soon. "-_-
I've been walking around sourcing and doing budgeting for two days; it's almost done but I am not complaining because it is all for a good cause. = )
I think I can finally take a break when November comes.
So I would expect my legs to break soon... LOL...

Today, I watched Hauendae The Deadly Tsunami.
I swear if I watched it alone or I haven't know the full story, I would cry like there's no tomorrow. Ha.
There were parts where I was about to cry but I held back as usual.
Or if not when I was about to really cry and suddenly someone beside me cried even louder and I can't help but to stop my tears and laugh at her instead of crying. LOL. HAHAHAHAHA. : P
(She's going to kill me when she sees this)
And... I found strawberry cheesecake ice cream in Singapore! Ha.
However, it wasn't as nice as the one in Genting.
I still prefer the lemon flavour ice cream from that shop (that's my favourite ice cream in Singapore).

Tomorrow and Monday afternoon another meetup...
17th my parents are going to make my favourite dishes for me. = )
23rd meeting my sis and cousins, 24th BF, 25th YT clique... 31st steamboat?
And a lot more things slot in between here and there...

Somebody pasted this on msn for me to read some time back during work...

You will never look at a cup of coffee the same way again.

A young woman went to her mother and told her about her life and how things were so hard for her. She did not know how she was going to make it and wanted to give up . She was tired of fighting and struggling. It seemed as one problem was solved, a new one arose.

Her mother took her to the kitchen. She filled three pots with water and placed each on a high fire. Soon the pots came to boil. In the first she placed carrots, in the second she placed eggs, and in the last she placed ground coffee beans. She let them sit and boil; without saying a word.

In about twenty minutes she turned off the burners. She fished the carrots out and placed them in a bowl. She pulled the eggs out and placed them in a bowl.

Then she ladled the coffee out and placed it in a bowl. Turning to her daughter, she asked, "Tell me what you see."

"Carrots, eggs, and coffee," she replied.

Her mother brought her closer and asked her to feel the carrots. She did and noted that they were soft. The mother then asked the daughter to take an egg and break it. After pulling off the shell, she observed the hard boiled egg.

Finally, the mother asked the daughter to sip the coffee. The daughter smiled as she tasted its rich aroma. The daughter then asked, "What does it mean, mother?"

Her mother explained that each of these objects had faced the same
adversity: boiling water. Each reacted differently.

The carrot went in strong, hard, and unrelenting. However, after being subjected to the boiling water, it softened and became weak. The egg had been fragile. Its thin outer shell had protected its liquid interior, but after sitting through the boiling water, its inside became hardened. The ground coffee beans were unique, however. After they were in the boiling water, they had changed the water.

"Which are you?" she asked her daughter. "When adversity knocks on your door, how do you respond? Are you a carrot, an egg or a coffee bean?

Think of this: Which am I? Am I the carrot that seems strong, but with pain and adversity do I wilt and become soft and lose my strength?

Am I the egg that starts with a malleable heart, but changes with the heat?
Did I have a fluid spirit, but after a death, a breakup, a financial hardship or some other trial, have I become hardened and stiff? Does my shell look the same, but on the inside am I bitter and tough with a stiff spirit and hardened heart?

Or am I like the coffee bean? The bean actually changes the hot water, the very circumstance that brings the pain. When the water gets hot, it releases the fragrance and flavor. If you are like the bean, when things are at their worst, you get better and change the situation around you.

When the hour is the darkest and trials are their greatest, do you elevate yourself to another level? How do you

May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human and enough hope to make you happy.

The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way. The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past; you can't go forward in life until you let go of your past failures and heartaches.

When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling.

Live your life so at the end, you're the one who is smiling and everyone around you is crying.

It's easier to build a child than repair an adult. !!!!!!! This is so true.

May we all be COFFEE.

Is it me? Why is it me? I think it is me. It must be me!
I just need a little something today...

FYI, my FB closed down.

At times I wonder have I gone overboard in stuff which deems simple but it always seem hardest to achieve whereas things that are meant to be difficult always comes by simpler than those supposed-to-be-simple-stuff.
Over the years I've learnt to accept the destiny of simple stuff which I have failed to achieve and be really happy and contented and thankful for the success in difficult stuff...
Okay, I am much chilled though my heart still aches.
I know there's more to come in future days.

I was really high and happy to actually get a collection of chinese/cantonese/hokkien and english oldies and new songs... Ha.
Songs which seem to have extinct and reappeared in my ipod. LOL
From Bee Gees' "How deep is your love", Abba's "Dancing Queen" to Backstreetboys "I want it that way", Micheal Learns to Rock's "Sleeping Child" to Lady Gaga, Akon etc...
From Peng Jia Hui's "Xiang Jian Heng Wan", Huang Yi Ling's "Ai ni wu tiao jian" to Beyond, Andy Lau, Zhang Guo Rong to Zhang Jing Yun's "Hei Qun Zi" etc...
It's a collection of over 2000songs which I have yet to finish scanning through. = )
And there was an urge to go to the KTV and sing all the oldies. Haha.
The only bad thing was that my ipod is "exploding" : P

Received my first birthday gift from Debbie this year = )

I guess it's only during times like this that you get to see who is true to you and who isn't; who is really good to you and who isn't; who is there for you and who isn't.
Though reality hurts at times but it makes you learn and face the real world early so it's still a good learning opportunity before I completely leave my label as a student and step into the society.
I think I have tried my very best putting my dignity down (yet not enough and though still as stubborn) and accepting/asking for help from other people however yet "cold calls" are still the hurting part especially when it's from someone you trust/love/offered help before.
And also at times people still could not fully absorb and accept my situation and yet unknowingly and unintentionally make me in a difficult position.
Well, I finally picked up the word "no" in my dictionary... em... okay maybe still there's room for improvement of getting it a firm "no". Ha.
But I thought it was something worth praising me about as for someone like me to reject somebody is a really brave action.
As usual, the last week of the month is the hardest to get over; I just can't wait for next week to come.

P.S: To those who "left" me, I don't hate you nor I will break ties with you. I will still offer my help if you need one but I don't love you anymore.
P.S: To those who stood by me, thank you and I love you. = )

I started a joke - Angela Zhang
I started a joke, which started the whole world crying, but I didn't see that the joke was on me, oh no.
I started to cry, which started the whole world laughing,
oh, if I'd only seen that the joke was on me.
I looked at the skies, running my hands over my eyes, and I fell out of bed, hurting my head from things that I'd said.
Til I finally died, which started the whole world living, oh, if I'd only seen that the joke was on me.
I looked at the skies, running my hands over my eyes, and I fell out of bed, hurting my head from things that I'd said.
'Til I finally died, which started the whole world living, oh, if I'd only seen that the joke was on me.

It's 5pm and the weekends will be ending pretty soon.
I'm quite tired actually after pumping nine balloons but after looking at the final result, I think it is all worth it. = )

See how pretty the metallic balloons are. Ha.
And I learned something new - ONLY helium balloons float. (thanks to my teacher Ms Toh) Ha.
I was still trying to figure out why my balloons don't float. LOL
I just deflated all of them; I just want to test the colors on photo.
Even though my darling suggested to only get three colors but I feel like holding all of them during the photoshoot. Hehe.

September is ending and Limin's wedding is nearing somehow after a long wait.
I have been really excited and happy and also looking forward to her big day ever since I knew the proposal last year February.
I think it's even happier than if it was my own marriage. LOL
I am definitely not exaggerating.
I am still waiting for someone from Black Friday to get married. (Kenny/Jackson I am counting on you. HA)
It's going to be fun!
Okay, I should say I can't wait for every single one in both cliques to get married. LOL.
Now for the first step.... I have to think of Limin's Hen's night. Em.... Headache.

And... Angela Zhang is back with her new album.
Isn't it a wrong timing? Ha.
Any kind soul who wants to sponsor that album as my birthday gift? LOL

P.S I will post a photo of the GG>5 multipurpose shawl from my YT clique when I receive it. Hehe

Back in the beginning of this week there was one day where it was raining cats and dogs in the morning.
I was as usual walking to the train station with an umbrella and I saw school children wearing rain coat.
It reminded me of my Secondary days where I feel that rain coat is so cool so in my first few months in YTSS, I used to put on rain coat when it rains.
However it became a joke for my clique as usual. Ha.
Okay, anyway, I was thinking it would be great if we could actually record down each and every significant memory on photo or even better on video.
But it's not possible because those that we cannot turn back time to record those things.
That is why I am trying to recap as much as possible and record down on paper.

Some backdated photos that I have just received. = )

I like the bubble effect. Ha.
Er.... and.... I bought more clothes. : P LOL
Okay. Need to live with bread and water soon.

After reading Angelia's blog, I decided to come blog also. Ha.
It's a boring Saturday night; haven't moaned about one for a long time.

This morning woke up early to go to Sentosa with Mad and Angel and we got ourselves burnt. LOL.
I think all three of us are suffering from post-Sentosa-redness-pain-syndrome now.
In addition, I think the tanning session today made me realise that my skin is bad... got to do something quick before the phototaking session.

The previous previous night, after one month plus of enduring, my k-khakis revived from the sleeping dead. LOL.

There they are. Ha. This is actually our very first photo together at k. Can you believe it? Ha. Ok. It's my bad because I don't like to take photos.
This is going to be in one of the chapters in my book.
Anyway, I realised that I look better (nowadays) in photos smiling without my teeth shown. = ( Next time if I have the money, maybe I can go put braces.
Come to think of it. This is bad. My skin is deteriorating, my eye bags are worsen, I am growing fat, my teeth is "moving further and further out", my scars on my body are increasing... Em... maybe two years later you will see me flying to Korea to do some plastic surgery. HAHAHAHAHAHA

Forget to take photos with Kenny. Never mind.
Sang till 3am. And I totally agree with what Angelia said in her blog. Ha.
Kenny always has the power to gather everyone to come out impromptu... "-_-
Even though I was the one who created BF okay more of naming BF, he seems to be the leader of the group. Em... never mind. I enjoyed because I was in total good form that night. Ha.
Only for that Y2J duet which sucks (agreeing with Mad that that's the only song I suck in that night... maybe I shall give up that song. Ha because I am not even singing; I am shouting to hit the lady's notes and strength.)

P.S. Mad, Yixiang and Angel came too that night (to celebrate the ORD of the last NS guy in BF).
P/P.S. I miss genting. LOL. I know I am slow.

My workplace is a beauty. = )
How should I describe it... the building is a mixture of european style and rome style plus a little chinese style. Ha.
I was stopped by the security guard when I tried to take photos in the lobby inside the building.
Quite sad... but I managed to take photos of the platform outside the building...


 
It's quite sad that I have to part with my colleagues and boss because they are really nice and friendly.

OMG... I was helping my sister look for a movie slot and I saw this....
PHOBIA 2 is coming! Look at the trailer below. LOL.

And.... Angela Zhang is finally back. Ha. I think she still looks pretty. Hoping for more new songs from her.

Maybe it's nothing to others but this is my darkest year. Ha.
It's been a long time I've ever posted something down publicly right?
Well, not exactly this whole entry will be down, just that I want to tell the world I am still holding on whether how much my body has bleed through injuries along the way ever since my 21st.
I gave up some goals along the way; there was a period when I gave up all of it; and now I am back with new targets to achieve so that I can find some meaning in life.
It's tough I must say when my money source just kept downgrading; from a proud figure of savings to none at all now; from someone who never fails her exams till now I am retaking one module.
I realized the more I grew (age I mean), the tougher it gets and to be frank I HATE IT.
Responsibilities aside, okay, I can't put them aside, that's my point. LOL.
No matter how much more it has been added, I WILL SURVIVE~

Was thinking whether to list down what I want to achieve but nahz. Better not : P

I love you world~
(more of I love you my friends and family)

This small kid from Singapore is scary but she is doing Singapore really proud.
蔡艾珈 who went to Taiwan to PK in 超級星光大道5 did a really good job.
Her first performance, she won and was awarded 22/25.
Her second performance, she won again and was awarded full marks!

All the judges gave her really good comments.

Third PK, she won again at 22marks.
And she lost in the 4th round.

Olivia Ong who went to PK also did a great job.
First performance she was awarded 20marks and won.

continue... While the others rested, the four of us went walking around taking photos and eating...



This is nice = ) It's a cheesecake flavour. LOL I hope it is sold in Singapore.

See the gluttons in our trip. LOL.













Taken on the escalator.

My wugui kept asking me to pose with the poles but I don't know how to. Ha.

And at night, our "BLACK" theme. Ha.



I think this is really candid. Ha.

Nice but not very clear though.

I still think my photos with Angel are the nicest. That's our mango bags.




And then we took a cable car down the hill. LOL. It was an exciting ride because when the cable car got off the building, we are screamed. LOL. Ok. At least it was a little bit scary for me. Ha.



This photo is nice despite my eye bags.


Along the way to and fro in the cable car, we had a mini k session. Ha. And we sang pretty harmoniously and blended quite well together.

Ended Day 1 with a little drinking session. I was amazed when the malay there sang the famous cantonese song 追 and got the crowds all high (just like in the concert).
Oh and we finally disclosed to each other the secret friend game. I was so confident with mine but I was wrong again. Haha. Only Kenny guessed correctly his secret friend. Never mind.

( Day 2 & 3 )

Whether it is good news or bad news, it is up to me on how I want to look at it.
But no matter what, reality is reality, I can't change it.
It is just that I didn't expect it to turn out this way.
Now I am just pinning hope that the other will turn out just fine as a consolation.

OK! Seriously I don't know how to blog this because after four days three nights of hanging around with Mad,Angel,Kenny,Angelia and Yixiang, we managed to collate around 700+ photos (almost on par with our Taiwan photos). "-_-
I think I will probably spend a bomb developing photos from this trip and Mad's birthday because it turns out to be quite nice. (Credits to Mad's award winning camera)
Out of these photos, it is pretty obvious that I have the least appearance (lol) followed by Mad... as for the highest appearance, you can just look through what was posted to see the results. Ha.

Okay. Thursday night (first day of the seventh month) after being instructed to pray, I headed down to golden mile to meet the rest.
The Five Star coach was cool... all the six of us occupy the lower deck which was like a private first class seats. (thanks to Angel)



First stop - Yong Ping
Some slept like pigs, some chatted... as for me, as expected, no matter how many ways I tried, I just couldn't sleep.
In the end I couldn't stand it and decided to take the risk to eat a medicine which will make me drowsy.
[Angel looked at me and asked what was I doing and I told her that I needed the medicine to make me sleep and she told me that we will be reaching in one hour time. "-_-]
Worse of all, my medicine effect only came exactly when we reach the terminal.

IT WAS FREEZING btw.

Look how sleepy I am...
It was still very early and we cannot check in so meanwhile we did a lot of things.

Had double breakfast... Dim Sum and Mac. Went to the casino. Battled in basketball and took LOTS and LOTS and LOTS of PHOTOS!!!
( WARNING LOTS OF PHOTOS )
to be continued...

I really LOVE this photo!
Not only because the person is Hebe...
But it's more of because of the concept. = )